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The return to work

The return to work

As I mentioned last night, I had a lot of obsessions about work. I managed to fall asleep somewhere between 12:30 or 1:00 AM. Like I had said before, I developed this habit (good or bad who knows) of staying up very late. It was my escape from the every day pressures of all the emotions I faced. As I watched Netflix I dreaded each minute as they passed completely nervous about what my return to work would bring. But,…

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Saying Goodbye

Saying Goodbye

The funeral was something that I thought I would handle alright, but the difficulty in handling it didn’t become apparent until maybe a day before. Ava was buried on July 15. Leah and I mentioned a few times that from the point that this all began on July 8 through the day of the funeral; we were consumed with doing things for Ava. There were many things to consider. We had to find a place to bury her, we had…

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The Gravestone. The tattoo. The nursery.

The Gravestone. The tattoo. The nursery.

Today was more of a difficult day for me. I know that before any of this happened with Ava I was the type of person that could be a bad mood for no reason. Maybe that’s like everybody else, who knows. I woke up this morning in a somber mood. I never pinpointed exactly what was causing my mood to head south but I suspected its the typical “I hate having to live this way” attitude that rears its ugly…

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